No easy way about it

It wasn't easy living apart from God. Living in the Lord isn't hard but it isn't easy either. People try to knock me off that square too. And, of course, the Devil pops up all over the place going 'Hey, look over here. Look what I got. Lemme show you a shortcut.'
I haven't quite figured out yet if people are purposely trying to knock me off my square, just jealous, testing my resolve or saying, 'Big Deal, you finally got it'.
There I go trying to think again. I know how much trouble that gets me in.
I've decided for the time being to just keep my blog to myself. I've told some people about it and they know where to find it...if they're interested...and I'm willing to share it....but this is mostly for me. I'm not going to push this or anything else on anybody. They gotta look for this blog and enlightenment just like I had to. But when asked, I'll be glad to share.
I didn't share all the good stuff when I was deep in my addictions and self-centeredness. Oh, once in a while I'd throw out a few morsels but I usually had an ulterior motive.

Just because reading the Bible causes me to want to know more doesn't mean other people want to know whats going on inside this squirrelcage. Its just that I don't feel as selfish anymore that I want certain people to get the same rush I'm getting. But I'll get over that too. I'm just going to share it right now with the one person who got me started in the right direction. The person I felt safest talking to in the first place.

And just like its raining and T-storming right now, everyday is not going to be sunny either. Of course I don't know how many days I have left but many of them will be miserable too.
Maybe not as many as there used to be but they should be easier to get through.

Yesterday was a good day getting introduced to Ecclesiastes. I remember Drill Sergeant Hendrix saying 'Everyday's a good day, try missing one' but, like I said, getting into it really whets my appetite. I told Luke yesterday I've owned the Bible over 40 years but never really cracked it. And from what I've read in 'Purpose-Driven Life' I'm not unlike a lot of other people. But it did look good on the shelf.

Starting the day like this is doing me some good. You get into a good routine just like you get into bad ones, I guess. Its a lot easier when you want to do something than when you're made to do something. Thats stating the obvious.

I'm requiring less sleep now too. It seems like I have more energy. Its not hard to fall asleep and hard to get up. But I'm sure those days are coming too. I'm just more anxious to start a new day, hopeful and anticipatory.

See, its perfectly quiet now. The rain stopped, the storm is gone and its getting brighter.

I guess all things DO pass.