I'm hoping it becomes clear to me someday what I was put here for. Maybe I didn't phrase that right. I know I was put here for Gods enjoyment and to bring glory to Him but what was my duty to others while I am here on this earthly domain. Oh, it is pretty big things I was asked to do like bring three wonderful children into the world and help a lot of kids go to college while they were defending their Country. I'm proud that He helped me to make the decision to defend it myself for many years. There were many other tasks I've been asked to perform for Him.
But I performed many other things that were NOT of His will. Because He gave me free will, when I took it back, I did a lot of things that I'm not too proud of. They didn't make the Big Guy too happy either.
Did He make me experience things like alcoholism, drug abuse, homelesness, unfaithfulness, lack of self-confidence and self-esteem for a reason? What was the fear and pain about? Those things hurt a lot! Some at the time and most for many years after. It is slowly becoming apparent to me that it was all for a reason.
I will wait for the answer and I know it will come someday, maybe while I'm a visiting here or maybe when I live in Eternity. I got time.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment