Monday, July 24, 2006

Biting my tongue and zipping my lip

Thats not normal or easy for me to do. Takes a lot of self-control and I don't have a lot of that. I can remember times when I didn't have any. When I see something I don't like or hear something I don't agree with I try to set everything and everyone straight and tell it like it is...the way it REALLY is.....whether you like it or not.
I've just learned recently that I don't know it all. Sometimes I don't even know all the right answers. Occasionally the other person is right and I am wrong. Oh, it doesn't happen often but has happened more and more lately.
I have exaggerated, told a couple of fish stories, misrepresented, prevaricated and even told a couple of tall tales in my time. But I didn't let anyone else get away with it.
I didn't learn all the Rules of the Road from the Secretary of State. Some of them I learned from people who lived on the Road...the Streets...the Viaducts and the Parks.
I used to say what I needed to say to accomplish the mission. Sometimes the mission wasn't always on the up and up......sometimes it wasn't even legal.
I used to be in the same boat that some of the people I'm trying to help now. I said what I had to say and did what I had to do. Sometimes I really believed it and sometimes I just skewed it to fit my view of reality....whatever my view of reality was that day.
Its only lately that I'm realizing little by little how lucky I have really been. Theres a lot of people that get by on a lot less than I have been blessed with.
Every time I think about 'those people' I remember that it wasn't that long ago that I was one of 'those people'. In fact I still am one of 'those people' in a lot of ways. I need the reminder every day that I should be as compassionate and understanding as I wanted people to be to me.

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